What the future Holds

This might seem ridiculous but since my last post on here I have been so busy taking care of everyone else I forgot this was here. I working hard but not gaining...why is that?
Those of you that have had a chance to know or work with me know I am 100% full out committed to what I am involved in. The money never seems to be the issue it is always the end result. The gain for whom ever I am working for. I love the ability to create things that are fulfilling for others and help them to fee a sense of accomplishment.
This company. DJamesFoss Media, has had every bit of commitment and I want to be able to grow. Right now all projects have stopped as I apply for work at different companies around the country in a hopes of being able to support my family with the talent God has given me. I am now in the 20th reprisal of my resume and having sent out my 1000th application or proposal I am curious where I am missing the mark.
Creation of something out of just an idea into a work of art whether for enjoyment or education is an unbelievably time consuming and draining (financially) endeavor. I have a million talents but this one is the only one that has been about me and given to me from God that makes it unique. I am very grateful for all the things I have done and the people that I have helped into their success but I need the break now, I need the help now. if you read this and enjoy what I do don't let this become another closed chapter in my life
God says to be still and have faith, so here I am doing just.